Search Me And Know Me

The presence of God heals, creates, and encourages
but I have to engage it in a quite movement.

I ask God to search me and know my heart
test me and know my entire heart and mind.
I ask him to give me a list of things
he finds defective in me.

areas of needed growth
areas of needed change
anxious thoughts
lack of movement or development

I ask him which of these defects
in his opinion
needs the most immediate attention.

I stop to look within myself
to see if I have the desire
to change these revealed defects. 
If I do not, then I take that lack of desire to change
as the first thing to be changed.