For a moment of bravery I ask Jesus to give me His heart. I imagine watching Him break away my stone heart and place within me a new heart. It feels strange, especially when I begin to go about my day with Someone else's heart.
Whom have I in heaven but You? And besides You, I desire nothing on earth. My flesh and my heart may fail, But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. For, behold, those who are far from You will perish; You have destroyed all those who are unfaithful to You.
But as for me, the nearness of God is my good; I have made the LORD God my refuge, That I may tell of all Your work. - Psalm 73:25-28
"Whom have I in heaven but You?" If I got to heaven and received all the promises of heaven, but God was not there, would I still want to go? If Jesus were not there, do I still even want it? I want to live a life now where I desire nothing but Jesus. I want god to be my only desire; not his blessings, not peace, not joy, but God alone. I want my heart to live a life by which God IS MY FULL PORTION forever; where my heart and mind fully realize that my greatest good in life is nearness to God.
I desire for God to be my greatest desire; not only His blessings, joy, peace, or provision. All those things are OF GOD, and that means peace, joy, provision, and refuge will only be found in Him.
This means that God is strength and refuge. He will only be MY refuge when i am found near and in Him.
Augustine writes of God, "You yourself are their joy. Hapiness is to rejoice in you and for you and because of you." Remind me again that joy is not based on my self . God is the only source of joy. All REAL happiness is because of the ultimate joy which IS God. Joy is based completely on God. Suppose God does not GIVE us anything. Is HE still my joy? I hope I can make God my only joy. Then I can allow my happiness, however it comes to me, to drive me to rejoice in God and for God and because of God.